Sadly it is my turn to say goodbye little Sis..
To another sister who passed away three days ago, looking back who would have thought I would lose both sisters so suddenly and in the same year. It was only February you was at our big sisters funeral smiling and helping out.
To receive news that you have gone, have left me totally shocked. I feel guilty that I didn’t make more effort to see you, but I know that in all the years spent together I had shown you love and we were comfortable with each other.
Today, I think of all the fun we had when we went swimming alone, whe we were plaiting each other’s hair so we could look the same, I think of the times we spent together and the fun we had. The jokes we told and the look on your face when you realised I wasn’t just a stuffy big sister, but one who would roll around in the grass, one who would throw water all over you, one that would chase you up and down the street, one who didn’t care about most things others cared about, you found out and said. “honey you are different”. I liked that, and also you said you felt comfortable around me.
Today… as I reminisce, I can hear your loud laughter, and see your smiling face. We got up to so much mischief. Yet I was 14 years your senior. I have watched the video of the three of us until I know exactly what word you will say next, a beautiful reminder of you both, but oh so very sad.
Far cry from when I remember when you was born, and how jealousy reared it’s ugly head. I thought our father would love you more than me and that you would take my place.
But I was wrong.
I know we all have to die someday, as the wages of sin is death. (Mark 16:15..)
I just wished the three of us as sisters could have had more time together. Although, if we had more time would it have made a difference? No! I don’t think so… because human beings can be selfish.
Philippians 2:1-4 ESV / 40 helpful votes
…. Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others.
Looking back I wish the three of us had made more effort but we get so busy with life that we have no time for our loved ones, and although outwardly we know we love our dearest family. When they leave us all that remains are cold promises that can never be acheived. We spend so much time being busy that little words are unspoken, such words as “Sorry”.
Christianity is only about Love… How can we go wrong..
It is almost as if the human race believe life go on forever, some people even saying they would work it out with God when they die, that is great, as the God of the universe cannot be mocked. But looking back sister, I was the same. Sadly for me and what I now believe, it looks as we may never see each other again. BUT, as said before I hope your last hours were between you and God.
As humans we get annoyed at the simplest things, we stop talking to others over the trivial matters; the hardest one of our sins is that of forgiveness. But..
the scripture says…
Ephesians 4:31-32 NIV
Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
The scriptures say whether we do believe or do not he is still God, I live on hope daily that like our big sister you called out to God during your final hours, and I try to take comfort from that. Now I am sitting here bombarded with thoughts of both of you, your death have drummed into me that …life is meaningless.
No one can cheat death. Absolutely no one. Whilst on earth we have all the power, but there will come a time when the creator of the universe will return. And every knee shall bow…
It is written: “‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord, ‘every knee will bow before me; every tongue will acknowledge God.'”
“Truly, truly, I say to you, he who hears My word, and believes Him who sent Me, has eternal life, and does not come into judgment, but has passed out of death into life.
Naturally as my flesh and blood I will miss you, as instead of grieving for one sister I am grieving for two. I’m hurting more, and for reasons as said before. I often said to you at some point in your life someone would have mention God to you, but hey death is final all hope is lost once death finally comes.
I always remember the scripture from Ecclesiastes 1:14. which says. Life is meaningless… Sadly it has been proven this year for me…
…What is crooked cannot be straightened and what is lacking cannot be counted.…life is meaningless all we can do is live life free from sin and be happy…
So today, I pray that I never lose another person I care about without spreading the gospel.
Goodbye Sharon, goodbye B… Only God knows.
From your remaining sister Honey…xx